The centre of an hurricane

I want to break
but I can't,
something is stopping me,
forcing me to continue,
and then, agony,
pain, hate, doubt,
how can this happen?
Why?
So many questions,
that only the heart can answer.
Every word I type
and every word I write
won't be enough to shake these feelings...
Why is he doing this to me?
Why did he came back?
I can't understand what I feel,
maybe I'm overreacting,
maybe not.
I'm in panic,
and yet, I look calm
like the centre of an hurricane.
Maybe I can,
Maybe I can't,
don't know why,
don't know who,
So many doubts,
all of them because of you.