Black Heart Inertia

Just like that,
it's done,
another one made me bite the dust.
Now
All there is to do is
Survive.
Isn't it what we all do?
My heart is back
To the black inertia.
The lights are out
I cry out in my sleep,
It's such a lovely day
to suffer, to experience rejection.
Tonight the stars shine
Tonight the moon is full
But I can't stop thinking
How I was a fool.
The story repeats itself
Too many times,
Too many people.
Why me?
Hasn't my heart experienced enough pain?
Were all my fights in vain?
I try not to think
I try not to feel
But all that I want to do
Shouting to the air
And kneel.
My heart is black
The pain is back
All I see is a rope in my neck
But I won't surrender
That's what a coward would do
No, I'm here to stay, I'm here to fight
But not for you...